We ask God to change our circumstances when what He desires is for our circumstances to change us.
I was shattered to pieces and placed carefully back together again by our Beautiful Savior… all in one week.
Who would have thought you could get so wrecked and yet be made to feel more whole than ever before practically all at once.
God showed up.
BIG TIME:
- I saw people get healed
- I prayed over people to be healed… And God made it happen
- God gave me words of Life to speak into others
- He spoke truths into my heart that I in no way could have known on my own
- My wonderful Father showed Himself to me
- He told me I am loved and worthy
- I slept in a tent… in the rain…with spiders… and I liked it
- I saw the beauty of our Creator in rain storms, stars, and waterfalls
- My heart was captured by a great love for my entire squad
- I was able to stomach weird food. I mean WEIRD. Nothing says delicious like Ugali and banana onion sandwiches
- What I thought I was entitled to started to crumble. A bed? Who needs it anyway?
GOD LOVES US.
Training camp was a whirlwind of experiences that taught me so much. I met my crazy beautiful brothers and sisters. I learned an immense amount of God, love, faith, healing, and myself.
To put it simply, friends, I experienced God in ways I really never thought would ever happen to me. Who am I to deserve to hear God speak through me? Who am I to have God heal through me? Who am I to see Jesus, the love of my life—like actually see Him? Who am I that the God and Creator of all things would want to talk to me?
I am worthy. I am worthy to have my God do all those things for me purely because I am loved. I am rescued. I am forgiven. I am His Beloved Daughter. I am made completely whole through my Savior Jesus Christ, even out of the wreckage.
This past week I released so much control, only to find even more stability in my Father. To be honest, though, I was never in control. It has always been God’s Hands gently guiding me along this path to lead me exactly where I am today. This place of exposure and vulnerability is sometimes painful, but absolutely necessary for me to grow into the woman God wants me to be.
Thank you all so much for your support and prayers they are helping make all this possible!
My amazing squad!
My beautiful and incredible team!
