I used to want to wake up every morning needing God so badly just to feel like I could breathe. He has taught me something even better. He has pulled me in just a little bit closer—just a little bit more intimate with my Creator.

This week in worship I was standing on a bench talking to Jesus. We were just chatting about my desire to need him as badly as I needed the air in my lungs. How much I longed for that kind of relationship with Him.

God, how do I know if I have reached that point?

Do I really feel like I need You that much?

With Me you don’t even need to breathe.   Look, I am your breath.  We can be so close that you will never need to breathe on your own again.

God was telling me this when I realized I had not been breathing. I physically had not been taking any breaths for a while. When I actually began to think about what was happening I kind of panicked. I sank in the water so to speak. I had to take a breath.

So no, I don’t need God just to feel like I can breathe. I can’t breathe at all without Him. He is my breath. He is my life. He is in me and I in Him. Without that I am nothing. How could I be anything else? If not for God where would I be? Who would I be?

I am nothing without my God.

I could have the world. I could have a bed, hot showers and a room of my own. But you know what? It’d be worthless. It would count for nothing if God were not in me. If God were not my breath everything in the world would be meaningless. And because God is in me. because God is my life, I am in Honduras. I am in a beautiful country without a bed and without hot showers.  I am with beautiful people who have so little, yet have so much with our God.

I hope I never have to breathe again.